I was wondering, just a little, why I was working so hard on my dystopian novel, Hierarchy. While I find it engaging, some of the critiques on critiquecircle.com have suggested basically changing the whole novel. I’ve had a few encouraging readers, but since it has a more depressing world-view than most of my novels, I was wondering why I was working so hard on it. I was enjoying revising it, enjoying it a lot, actually, but why keep plugging away at it? Especially when I’m not usually very fond of dystopias myself.
After reading, http://www.marcandangel.com/2013/03/12/one-thing-you-must-stop-doing-to-be-happy/, I have at least part of the reason. When I’m working on Hierarchy, I’m happy. Making it better is what I want to do. I’m not sure if it will be a book that people want to buy, sometimes I wonder if people will ever want to buy any of my books, but most of the time I try not to worry about it. I’m a full-time writer, and a self-published one, and that is what I’m doing. Having people buy my books would be nice, but isn’t required for me to enjoy what I’m doing.
From Marc & Angel’s site: “We believe that if there’s no planned purpose to an event or activity, there’s no point in doing it. In reality the best things in life are unplanned and without an appointed purpose.”
While I do have a purpose, it may not happen. But I’m happy to be working on a novel that I find interesting. I’m happy to make it better, but I’m not going to change it completely because that might sell better, which is a big might. That wouldn’t make me happy. I’m happy working on my novel. So I’m going to keep at it.